That Green Eyed Beast and The Blue Skinned Man

So this weekend we are doing the 48 Hour Film Project. Josh and Brian are the brain babies behind it, and I am so proud of them. They have accomplished what I have been trying accomplish for the last few years of my life; make a viable creative partnership. I don't know if it is just me or the others I work with, but it doesn't ever happen. I know that I have to be partially to blame, simply because these things have failed. But I have seen myself be creatively stimulated and I have made things happen. I think that I need to realize that no one else is going to motivate me, and if I want to get it done, I need to make a partnership of one. I can involve others, on consulting bases, but the end all, be all, must be me. I have the power to move myself. You have to stop the pity party and start a commotion. I get tired of going back to my old college and being filled with bad memories and regrets. I have come to a decision. Mark this day down in your calendars and history books. I will be a motivated man. And when I begin to falter, I will look back at this entry, or on this day, and I will remember what I want, and I will again be fueled and resume my uphill battle and I will be able to go to my old haunts and not have regrets and feel that I am accomplishing something. Starting tomorrow.